my movements toward consiciousness

Re-evaluate how I live. Persuit of truth. I am finally realizing what torrments me inside. My internal conflicts are real. What I define as values are different from the way I live my life today. Rather than lower my standards to the way I live, in efforts to resolve the disharmony I feel inside, I think that I should change my behavior in living up to what I value and beliefs. Only then will I find true happiness. This is my journey, by myself. This is my road less traveled.

my disharmony inside

I have a headache. Lately, I’ve been having a lot of headaches. A long time ago, I was disappointed by the responses of my environment. I clearly took things very personal which slowly pounded my self-worth to not much of anything.

I learned to internalise my feelings, emotions, and just about anything else that ran across my my mind.